Heart Numb

“Some habits begin as shields.”

I would drink

until my heart was numb,

until the feeling

wasn’t recognizable.

I had to stay drunk

to keep up with

the rest of them.

Not knowing

how it feels

when she’s the only thing

that makes you want

to breathe.

In a dream,

doing robberies.

My heart

was harder than me.

Empty your pockets.

Lemme see.

Survival of the fittest.

Mobb Deep.